abaikan

lately, just wondering if i could tell my feeling, to somebody even in this blog. i was dying, lately. i couldnt express what i felt. bad. sometimes i thought after tears ran down i could feel much better, no i was wrong. instead of feeling better, i was feeling worse after that, and couldnt stop those tears till i over slept. hahha, stupid i am. i dont know why i just couldnt feel good lately. i need books, train, long journey, and time off, i think.